Dear Matt,

     I don’t even know where to start.  There are so many things to say to you and I hope I can do it by these letters.

     First of all, I miss you in my life.  You leaving my life almost destroyed me.  I know you have your own life to live and all, but I miss being a part of it.  You are my only child, so you leaving me was especially hurtful.

     I’m sorry I made choices you didn’t agree with, but I made them anyway, and they’ve turned out for the good.

     My life has turned out well---finally.  I’m working at something I’ve always wanted to do---write.  I also have a great husband who supports me in everything.  You are the only thing missing out of it.

     It’s been about 7 years since I’ve heard your voice and I miss it.  You are my child and I love you lots.  I wish I could tell you that.

     So much good stuff is happening in my life and I can’t share it with you.  No matter how much I try to move on, after 7 years, your silence in my life is deafening.

     Do you ever think about me, your old mom?  Or have you forgotten me?  If asked about your mom, do you tell them we’re estranged or do you tell them I’m dead?  I think about you every day and hope you are happy and healthy.

XOXO

Love, Mom