I am in a very dark and unenlightened state of mind.   Things have been piling up to the point that I wander around feeling too heavy to move.  Taking a deep breath brings pain to my chest and a stinging watering to the eyes. I find myself sighing in the moments no one is watching and I look around as if I am ina fish tank, surrounded by water, the pain of holding my breath eternally too hard to bear and I stare in disbelief that other people are dropped into the tank around me and simply breath the water!  And whats worse, they smile at me and just glide on by, oblivious or uncaring to my circumstance.

I have not written in a while and I know the email is coming.  I cannot force the writing to come and was not prepared for the sheer weight and length of time that thi...

Please subscribe to keep reading.