or wanting to talk about it, I usually reply myself. Monique, on the other hand, can’t help replying to everyone she can, but lately, she's barely been able to scratch the surface.

As of last month, the channel was at 3.4 million subscribers and growing every day. I don't love recording and posting videos any less —it's always been for the love of the games and always will be —but I still miss the days when the channel only had a few hundred subscribers who seemed to genuinely enjoy what I did and who wanted to talk to me as a friend, not just to get high off saying I acknowledged their existence.

In some ways, I feel more like a fake the bigger my channel becomes, even when I know I'm being nothing more than myself, which isn't any more interesting than dryi...

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