Writing calms me....

Yet I can't seem to write it right. So I've gone through notebook after notebook trying to write to somebody, nobody, everybody, anybody. I guess about my feelings. They are so high, so low, never steady. My thoughts have killed a lot of trees.. They haunt question, judge, consume. My head hurts and I wonder sometimes, and that makes it hurt worse. Blah. Blah. I'm going to start my journal when I start writing it everyday at least it doesn't judge or write back.......see you soon.