Dear Lily,

I sigh everytime I think about me and Philip's first date. 

Our drive was quick and as soon as he parked, he ran around his old car and creaked open the passenger side door. I couldn’t help but let my big crooked smile showed itself again and I was in heaven.

When I was with Philip, I only thought of Toby a little bit and at times, not at all. Philip made me feel liberated and happy, not depressed and angry. For the first time since I met Toby, I was able to go two or three hours without thinking about him, but only if Philip was around to distract me. Before this first official date at The Uptown that night, we had had three afternoon meetings in the park, where we strolled and occasionally held hands if no one w...

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