Sometimes I feel like I'm falling, and sometimes I feel like I'm flying. It depends on the day. Most of the time it catches me off guard, and the feeling breaks me out of whatever I was doing at the time. Most people don't notice, but every so often I will see someone's eyes drift over to me and they are paying attention more than they should normally be.
The falling is the worst part. The lack of control, the vulnerability, the fear. It is raw fear. I had no idea I missed the emotion of fear these past few years, but I guess that's what they meant when they said you wouldn't know what you have until it's gone.
Flying, now that I could do all day. There's always that drop in the pit of my stomach that knocks the wind out of me, and I think that's what peo...
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