Insanity.

You're the fuel to my inspiration, and the complete downfall to me succeeding,

You're what I love, and want to end at the same time.

I don't drink to get drunk;
I drink to sleep,
I drink to qwell that demon that says I have to hurt others
I drink to numb any pain that will flash before my eyes, like a projector playing home videos that taunt me, and make me want to cry for how badly I want to scream.

Insanity.

You are the reason I keep doing the same thing over and over Praying to a God that's abandoned me that maybe today I won't scream outloud when I see my trauma presented to me like a story I know the ending to that I get to relive almost moment to moment.

Insanity.

I am so jealous of Leonard in M...

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