I’m not sure why or when it happened, but I’ve found myself to have pulled back lately. Maybe it’s because I’ve been badly hurt. My heart has been broken. I’ve felt rawness and realness that I’ve never felt before. I let it all out. There really was no choice. It oozed from my body in a way I was unable to restrain or get under control.

I’ve found it much harder for myself to let go. I don’t know if this is a good thing. I find it much harder to share, even if something is good news.

I found myself in a way unable to share happy news. Perhaps I am still bitter and hesitant. It’s something that maybe I didn’t totally expect to feel. Did I create this environment for myself or am I a product of this environment?

I can’t...

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