It felt like waking up from a

very bad dream, or some kind of

permanent stupor.

The damnedest thing was that I

didn’t even know it was happening

until it had,

Jen tells me it had been there

from the very beginning and that

it being there was a big part

in she and I being together.

I suppose I just don’t have

the right eyes for that sort of

thing, at least toward myself

maybe false humility,

maybe lingering self loathing,

my petty failings aside,

I do however know that it is there

I know it, because Jen’s daughters

show it to me,

they do not love me unconditionally,

as they might their father

no,

they love me because I am there

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